This summer I was blessed with the experience of going to FCA Captain’s Camp at Riverside Military Academy in Gainesville, GA. I had no idea what this experience would hold. I had been thoroughly involved in FCA since middle school, but I had never been to any sort of camp. As the weekend started, we all received a 2x4. I had no idea what this would mean to me a short 48 hours later.
Everyone was told to make sure and take the timber where ever we went. At Bible studies, I took notes on my timber. At the end of the weekend, after being pushed to our physical boundaries and learning that we must rely on God’s strength alone rather than our own, there was a prayer walk. It was there that the leaders explained the significance of our timber; we were carrying our cross around with us all weekend. The prayer walk was really the part that changed my life. As I walked and talked to God with my timber over both shoulders, I didn’t speak to Him as if I was talking to some inanimate object. Instead, I spoke to God and walked with God, but more importantly, I listened.
I listened to God telling me how He wants me to share His Word at West Hall High School. I heard Him telling me that He loved me more than I could possibly love Him in return. He explained to me that no matter how many times I sin and fail Him that I can never run out of His forgiveness. He also had a mission for me. I couldn’t go back to school and be the same Ansley Dobbs that walked the halls before. I had to be more up front with my faith. I couldn’t stand back and watch as my fellow students and teammates were oblivious to whom Jesus Christ even is.
Back at home, I prepared to start my final year of high school. One item left on the to-do list for the summer was senior pictures. My mom and I spent several days planning what we wanted them to look like and what I was going to wear. I had already decided that I wanted one of my pictures to be reflective of the missions work I have been involved in for many years now, so my mom suggested that I have a picture with my timber after I had told her about how God had worked in my life that weekend.
I want the picture to serve as an expression of my love for God. As Oswald Chambers said, “If human love does not carry a man beyond himself, it is not love. If love is always discreet, always wise, always sensible and calculating, never carried beyond itself, it is not love at all.” I don’t want to be discreet or even sensible in my love for Jesus. I want my love for Him to carry me beyond myself.
Lastly, the picture was taken as a reminder, just as the timber is a reminder of how God changed my life that weekend at Captain’s Camp. That picture is the way I would like for others to see me. I don’t want them to look and see Ansley Dobbs, but instead to look at my life and see Jesus Christ. The verse I got from that weekend and am trying to live my life by is John 3:30- “He must increase, but I must decrease.”
By: Ansley Dobbs
Posted on
Tue, September 7, 2010
by South Carolina FCA